BOOOOOOOOOORING.

I also haven't posted here in a long time.

OH WELL.

Yeah it's just boring.

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Even though no one cares in reading this but I am angry and I need a place where I can rant while writing.

I dislike my sister, I think she's bipolar. Ugh.
Then my dad, he talks about banning me from computer 24/7. Oh hey, it could become your next job. -u- You're so eager about it dad.

School's finally over, but now my friend is fucking my brains out with skype ugh.

Fuck you, computer and microphone and skype and everything else.

I want to punch something.

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Ok, I HAVE A PROBLEM.

So, I started drawing Black Rock Shooter (ofc with a bunch of million refs) and I colored her hair (on the head) and it looked OMFG AWESOME! Now I started coloring her coat which is A PAIN IN THE ASS, somehow I succeeded to add dunno somewhat base colors here and there, but with binary pen (cuz I'm that smart). SO, I'm asking if anybody has any advice how can I make it better. Now I'm currently frustrated and I have no will of coloring it today. Besides it's 2 AM here.

But, here's the pic >>>



So, anybody have any ideas? Well, I tried searching dA, but no luck. HAHA
I'll try to still do it on my own though.

But anyway, if anybody at all leaves any comments, advices, whatever.

Thank you.

School is a chaos. -u- I started failing, not seriously, nut yah. FAILING, again. AGAIN, that's what I do in my life every time when new school year starts! That's my lifetime dream job. -u-

Now I can finally kill myself.

The Lolita dream will wait for a few years or less. 'Cause everything for me is an a MESS. One big smelly fuzzy fucking mess. That's how life is kids.

But who am I to tell you that, I'm just a 15 year old girl typing this when I can't find anything else to do on informatics and internet is a bitch to deviantART.

Also, Third Watch... yah, Imma watching it. ANYWAY..
That THAT woman/satan WHAT EVER of "Cruz" is irritating me, she's annoying as fuck. =_=U

I just simply HATE HER. Nuff' said.

End.


Now, back to my life, yeah! XD God, I just wish school is easier. I know you have to study if you want to have good grades and even if it seems hard, it is not. WELL YOU KNOW, I DON'T REALLY CARE.

I just want that school is easier for all of us, attending school right now, AS WE SPEAK.

:< :<

AND I WANNA WATCH THIRD WATCH! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH D'X

Maybe, just maybe if I ask my professor to let me go early... NO NO I must not think like that >:C

But, still.... >_> It's tempting. HAHA.
I need at least 45 minutes from school to get home, sometimes 1 hours. And when I do get home, Third watch has already ended. Boo.



BIG PLUS! ++++++++++++++++ I have some freaks in my class. Not the devART freaks, but srsly FREAKS. I do respect them, DOOH. It's just kinda strange.

But hey, I am a freak too.

In my own way :'D

So, kids our theory of life and it's conclusion it that you're a freak, your mom is a freak, your cat is a freak, I am a freak, THE WHOLE WORLD is a FREAK!

>:D

^^ anyway... I don't have much to say... LOL

so like..

bai bai -waves-

Yah, I've been drawing and chemistry teach is an ass -u-

OH LORD. My cat farted again. =_=U

Anyway, how are you people? I'm doing "fine." HECK YEAH!

Last week I wasn't in school, 'cause I was so smart that the day before I killed my ankle. Well, not literally, but still..

I twisted my ankle. AND GOOD GOD, I'm gonna kill myself.

I started writing this, and then my dad came in yelling when I'm gonna start studying. >:C

I AM ANGRY NOW THANKS TO HIM. THANK YOU DAD, I JUST NEEDED THAT! (Gosh, I hope he's not reading this, LOL)
Then he started shouting WTF am I doing an all, then I said that I'm writing a post. Then he was all WHAT FUCKING POST?!?
Then I said blog or something. Well, hell. Parents will never understand blogging. But I'm not one of those teen's that are IDK what, taking frustration and then people bully them or IDK.

No no, I'm not that.

AND ALSO. I was thinking of becoming a Lolita. And I wonder what would my family say, BUT I DON'T CARE.

Also my father has interrupted me yesterday so I am continuing now. My apologies.

GOD I CAN SO HATE HIM SOMETIMES! (Well, I don't hate him for real, I'm just mad, STILL MAD, so...)

ANYWAY! Lolitas!

No not that Lolita novel. FYI Lolitas are not younger teenager girls trying to seduce WAY older men! GOD CHRIST I CAN JUST KILL YOU IF YOU EVEN TRY TO SAY THAT! >:C

Lolita is an street fashion in Japan inspired by 18th, 19th century CLOTHING! DUH, even some look like ones! So, yeah GOOGLE IT SERIOUSLY > Lolita Fashion.


Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, I wanna be a sweet, gothic and punk lolita! In school I would have to be Classic one, but meh.. AS LONG AS IT IS LOLITA! >w<
If for the God's sake you don't know what that is THEN EFFING GOOGLE IT > Lolita Fashion
=_=U

Yeah. >:C

ALSO, commissions are still open. :< HAHA.

Now I don't know what to write more. GAH. SCREW LIFE, I wanna live in Final Fantasy / Kingdom Hearts Universe. SQUARE ENIX UNIVERSE DOUBLE FUCK YEAH! >:D

So yeah, random posting coming up...
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^^ ^^ ^^

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AND OH YEAH, I'm gonna post a link of that. -u-

OK, oh God, I know that I said I'm gonna update the Commish info, but I didn't. So so so so SORRY about that. Also, I HAVE MANY WIPS TO DO, yeah B| Please, bare.

ANYWAY, I'm gonna put them up, THE PRICES ARE NOT "kinda" ACCURATE! So, tell me if I need to edit them! Me and my sis PRE-ordered Orpheelin's (I don't know the speeling, so sorry if it's wrong, am lazy to check it) "TOXIC" in english. And we have to confirm out order! DUE DATE: 31.10.2009. THAT'S LIKE IN 7 DAYS OTL. PLEASE HELP ME OUT HERE, for my sister's sake! We LOVE her art and we would die if we couldn't get that Toxic. ;_; SO PLEASE! THANK YOU!

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Status: Open

Styles:
- anime
- realistic/semi realistic (I can do somewhat of that, well it's your choice if you want it)
- cartoony

+I will add something if I remember

Will do:
- paper children
- furries
- chibis
- humans
- OC's
- fan art
- animals
- myth 'n' fantasy stuff
- ANYTHING IN PARTICULAR

Except for these!!!!

Won't do:
- yaoi/yuri (cause, I'm not good at it OTL, sorry. But holding hands and that stuff is ok with me)
- mecha (not good with that too, but can do something at least robotic, eh?)
- gore (I like blood myself, but too much of it can get me banned)
- hentai (cause I seriously strongly dislike it LOL)
- pixel art (maybeeee in near future, but I dunno :/ )
- tattos (cause I simply can't make them)
- animations (too lazy, sorry)
- pairings in some situations (like kissing and more complicated stuff)
- portraits (I have a reason for that and not telling it)


+If I forgot something, I'll add it

!!!---PAYMENT---!!!

International: Pay pal
Europe: Valuable Letter, Pay Pal

F.A.Q.
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WHAT KIND OF COMMISSIONS DO YOU DO?
- I do traditional and digital commissions. For what I draw please look Will do and Won't do.

WHAT PAYMENT DO YOU ACCEPT?
- For international only pay pal, but for Europe pay pal and valuable letter.

WILL YOU PUT A WATERMARK?
- Sadly, yes. Because I want to protect your commissions/my work against stealing. Don't worry the watermark won't be giant and it'll be hardly noticeable.

HOW WILL I RECIEVE MY COMMISSION/S??
- Digital commissions are received in email, in original size.
Traditional commissions are sent in mail.
~Both versions will be put on devART, but not original size and with a watermark

WHAT ARE THE PAYMENT OPTIONS??
- With pay pal, you can first pay one half and when I'm done, you pay the second half and get your commission/s.
With valuable letter you pay up front (you can do that with pay pal too if you want)
+ traditional commish are paying the ship fee

WHEN WILL I PAY?
- Ok, don't pay me anything until I say so.

WHEN WILL YOU START DRAWING MY COMMISSION AND WHEN WILL YOU FINISH IT?
- I'll sketch it our first, then show it to you, then you tell me if it's good or you want something different etc. I will start drawing when you pay me. For payment see up.
For finishing your commission, I don't know. I'll TRY to finish it under 3 weeks, but if I don't do it, I'll update you.


+++++ If I forgot something will add or you just simply ask me.


---RULES, THINGS YOU MUST OBEY (not seriously, but have to read)---
1. Ask any questions if you have (through comment, note... ).
2. If I haven't done your commission in AT LEAST 3 weeks, don't panic, like I said, ASK ME ANYTHING.
3. BE PATIENT, thank you.
4. If you have a feeling to tell me somehting, I don't know what, feel free I AM A NICE PERSON y'know.
5. Your commission is for your personal use, but if you want to show it somewhere else, feel free, but credit me at least.
6. If I'm going to slow down, close or something I'll update you.

7. PEOPLE I WILL POST UPDATES, so you don't have to panic.

8. And once again IF YOU HAVE A QUESTION OR HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY, JUST TELL ME.

++I will add more if I remember something



!!!------HOW TO------!!!

This here will help you out, ok?

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FILLING THE FORM, yay!

You send me a NOTE with a title COMMISSION and nothing else and this is how the form looks like:
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Title: Commission
Type: normal, chibi, paper kid, fan art etc.
>>>if the type is normal or any other (exception with paper kids and chibis) say if you would like head, bust, full body etc.
Style: anime, realistic, cartoony etc.
Description: [put description here]
>>> about description, be specific, go into details but don't over do it (if you wan't for you commissh to be more accurate)
Reference: [put link to a picture]
>>> if you can get it or have it
Payment: up front or half 'n' half
Pay pal email:
>>>(so that I can know who are you when receiveng the money) ???

///Pay Pal email is only for Pay Pal users

After you send me the note I will consider if I'm going to take it or not (as I can choose, but I'll most likely take it, lol) and I will send you these

Total amount: $$$
Address / pay pal email: depends on with which option you are paying
Commission info: just to be sure if that's what you want, feel free to correct me

>>>for traditional commissions, when everything is confirmed (I'll note you about that), you'll send me your address where the commission needs to go
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PAYING, yay!
--
You can pay up front and half & half. For which is which go to FAQ.

After I have sent you the information of total amount etc.. DON'T PAY IMMEDIATELY!!

'Cause I will tell you WHEN to pay.

Also, for more paying options and stuff look in the FAQ.
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SLOTS 'n' STUFF, yay!
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There will be 2 type of slots groups. Each group will have 5 open slots.
First group is "Waiting List" >>>for those who have paid/not paid, and waiting for their commissh. CAN NOT BE CANCELED
Second group is "Reserved" >>>those who have reserved for future (if they don't have money, know and will have later). CAN BE CANCELED
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PROCESSING, yay!
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When I'm doing something the text is gonna be bold, when I'm done with something it's gonna be crossed, when it's on hold it's gonna be underlined and when I'm not doing any of it, it's just gonna be simple plain text.
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STATUS, yay!
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I'll say when I'm closed, open, on hold etc. You can check my status under updates and/or either there where the status section is.
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!!!!!!!!!PRICES!!!!!!!!!

- For international only accepting DOLLARS, for Europe EURO
- Sketch, lineart, color
- Backrounds (optional): easy (almost non-detailed), medium (less detailed), hard (very detailed)
- Full body, head, waist, bust

!!!!!!!!!!---PAPER CHILDREN AND CHIBIS (only full body are the same price) for example>>> chibi / paper kid *amount here* $ or *amount here* €

!!!!!!!!!!!!----for every additional char in the commissh *amount here* $ / €

!!!!!!!!!!!!!----- if you want a group then state it in the form under TYPE, for example >>> type: furry (full body), group (amount of people in the group)

!!!!!!!!!!!!!----- you can also have colored sketches, prices are the same

+I will add more if I remember

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CHIBIS 'n' PAPER KIDS are 3 $ / 2 €

For every additional character - 2 $ / 1 €

Gropus:
= 2 people - 2 $ / 1 €
= 3 people - 2 $ / 1 €
= 4 people - 5 $ / 3 €
= 5 people - 7 $ / 4 €
= 6+ people - 10 $ / 6 €


COMMISSION
Sketch
• Head – 2 $ / 1 €
• Bust – 2 $ / 1 €
• Waist – 4 $ / 2,50 €
• Full body – 5 $ / 3 €
Line art
• Head – 2 $ / 1 €
• Bust – 3 $ / 2 €
• Waist – 5 $ / 3 €
• Full body – 7 $ / 4 €
Color
• Head – 2 $ / 1 €
• Bust – 3 $ / 2 €
• Waist – 6 $ / 4,50 €
• Full body – 10 $ / 6 €
Backgrounds (optional)
Easy
• Sketch – 2 $ / 1 €
• Lineart – 3 $ / 2 €
• Color – 4 $ / 2,50 €
Medium
• Sketch – 3 $ / 2 €
• Lineart – 4 $ / 2,50 €
• Color – 5 $ / 3 €
Hard
• Sketch – 5 $ / 3 €
• Lineart – 8 $ / 5 €
• Color – 10 $ / 6 €

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SLOTS:
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3.
4.
5.

RESERVATIONS:
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3.
4.
5.

!!!!!!!!!!!----------UPDATES----------!!!!!!!!!!!
- Officially open for the first time!
- Questions welcomed!
- AND WILL ADD EXAMPLES sometime this week (hopefully again, x] )
- If I forgot to add something, I'll add it when I remember, LOL.
- And feel free to remind me
- The reason why is something written more that 2 or three times, it is because SOME PEOPLE DON'T SIMPLY READ or THEY DON'T PAY ATTENTION

I'm alive, school is doing fine and such stuff...

Also, I have been drawing and doodling during recess and some classes eue. But, no biggie..

I drew this super duper awesome Hello Kitty fan girl and all.. I think I'm gonna put it up as a print, BUT THERES A LOT OF PROCESS TO BE DONE! -u- So, yeah..

How are you guys doing? :D And, how is school? ^^


Also, I got a new kitty. Three months old, completely orange with darker orange stripes and a female!

Her name is Penelo. Yes, just like the character from Final Fantasy XII. ^^

She's very hyper and playful and purrs all the time. When my sis and I go to sleep, she either sleeps on me or beside me. It's the same with my sister too!

God, she's so cute ;w;
I'll add pictures later! :D :D :D

Also, the next journal entry will be my commission information. ^^U Yeah, bare with me. The prices are up, but I will do the minor edits and all and also I will add examples!

-is keeping fingers crossed and hope that this works out P: -

P.S. if you want to add my commish info in your journal, that'll be so much helpful thank you! ^^ here's the info on devART >>> Commission Information

^^ so yeah... LATER! -waves-

OK, JESUS!

MY GRANDMA IS AWESOME! LOLOLOLOL.

WELL, I CALLED HER AGAIN WHAT TO DO ABOUT THE RICE AND OMG JESUS MY SIS IS HOME!!!
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anyway, my sis got me.. in my attempt of cooking the new rice before she gets home.. OH WELL..

but what happened in between was THE MOST EPIC THING OF EPICNESS! WHOO YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH


So, I called my awesome super duper grandma and asked her WHAT THE FUCK SHOULD I DO, lol. And she told me that I START COOKING THE NEW RICE IMMEDIATELY!!!

And, I did so.

But, I also needed to get rid of the evidence of the pre existing rice, and it was like EPIC.

I'm on the phone with my grandma and at the same time I'm cleaning the kitchen and getting disposed of dead rice.

LOL.

It was all done in a rush, but it looked like nothing happened.

Except for the new pot where's the rice cooking.

I really thought I could pull this off. But, I FAILED.

But, my sis didn't killed me. She laughed. Heheh...


And everything turned put good.

Except for the previous pot and the spoon, they are in the washing machine for dishes. C:

And then, my sis asked me where the cat is (but she didn't say the cat, 'cause I jumped in, so she didn't finish the sentence) and I told her that it was in the washing machine.

She was O_O THE CAT IS IN THE WASHING MACHINE?!?!?!

and I was like GOD NO, I thought you meant the dishes LOLOOLOLOLOLOOL.

Anyway, everything is good now. :D

Oh God.

I was cooking rice, well my sister started and it was up to me to finish it, since she left to take her exam. It only needed to be cooked for about 15-20 mins, but easily on the stove.

I don't know what went wrong..

BUT I KNOW THAT IT TURNED OUT LIKE THIS >>>










And then, I called my awesome super duper grandma who knows about cooking and asked her what is the rice's problem and she told me that I needed to put it into cold water, well to be exact to run cold water through the rice and mix it.

And guess what?

No, it did not work out.

IT TURNED ONLY WORSE.

The rice is now soggy and all mushy. I don't know.

And I don't have my lunch.

School is starting in about 2 hours but I have to travel to my school so I have to leave my home for an hour.

GOD, I SUCK.


And I fail life.

AND COOKING.

OTL OTL OTL


I'm such an idiot.


And here's a little video C:



EDIT---

FUCK FUCK FUCK.

My sis left for exam.

AND I THOUGHT I WOULD BE OUT OF THIS HELL HOUSE BEFORE SHE GETS HOME.

fuck fuck fuck

1000 times fuck

AND I FOUND OUT that she is RETURNING IN LIKE DUNNO WHEN BUT REALLY QUICK

JESUS CHRIST I'M GONNA DIE

orzz i'm such a drama queen LOL

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Bye, all it was nice knowing ya


:'(

Ok, I am now officially going into Veterinarian High School and so far I'M LOVING IT! :D :D :D The class is awesome and we're all good. Andd yesterday I picked up somehow a effing cold. Dunno how, but I'm ok, it's not THAT bad, even though I already dislike it. :/

'Bout Shayia, I'm on server L name-something, not T name-something, sorry ppl. C: I think it's Lailah or something, but yeah, I don't know.

Remember that Sailor moon drawing thing. Well, I still haven't finished it yet, due to my laziness and some other stuff, same with the OCT things. BUT I'LL GET TO THAT¨!!

And Chrono Cross, I'm still stuck =( Guess then Kid is going to die.. Oh well, WE KNOW WHO TO BLAME FOR

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL~~~~

Anyway, I like have among normal stuff Latin, Anatomy and such stuff.. I soon have the intern thing too, I just need to pass a test of somekinda.. P: SO WISH ME LUCKK! >w<

AND NOW THE BAD STUFF-----------------------------

Well, my parents got in a BIG fight, again. And my mom canceled the right of her bank account to dad, last time they had one fight. And even though in every big, bad or whatever fight she always threats that she's gonna leave, but she doesn't. And this time IT WAS BIG AND BAD so, my whole family is in chaos and dunno what.

My mom is a pretty complicated person and thinks she's a god so she can do whatever she wants, but when we do something IT IS REALLY BAD AND SERIOUSLY WRONG that we must kill ourselves. She hates her second company where she transfered, 'cause ppl there are stupid or something (but before the transfer she was saying that she's gonna love it and that ppl there are so much smart and omgg I dunno what) and now she hates them all to bits and complains every time she gets home. AND BLAMES EVERYBODY ELSE WHY HER LIFE IS LIKE SHIT and never looks at herself and if you JUST TRY or DARE to tell her the truth SHE'S GONNA SMACK YOU WITH WORDS OF "WTF ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT, SHUT UP, I'M THE VICTIM HERE" or something like that.



I mean I do love her, but I JUST CAN'T HELP IT TO WATCH HER AS SHE KILLS A PIECE OF HER MIND EVERY DAY AND LOSING HER SANITY. She doesn't want to admit that she has a problem and tells everybody else THAT THEY HAVE A PROBLEM, not herself.

AND I AM SERIOUSLY MAD, ANGRY, SAD, CONFUSED RIGHT NOW, even though I don't show it.

When she left to take a walk, two hours ago, me, my dad and sis talked how are we gonna live, where are we gonna live and such stuff. AND I SERIOUSLY WANNA DISAPPEAR. I mean, if they SERIOUSLY GET A DIVRCE I'll have to choose where am I going to live right? My sis is probably gonna live with my dad (even though she's 25 LOL) and I still don't know which side to take. 'Cause I wanna live with dad, but then AGAIN I don't wanna do it 'cause my mom is gonna think that I'm rubbing it in her nose or something showing that I hate her or what ever. GOD LIFE IS COMPLICATED.


So, yeah enough about ranting and dunno what. I just DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I GOING TO DO and that's all. AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT.







"Don't fight for the wrong side, say how you feel like"









And noww COMMISSIONSSSSSSSSS!!!

Well, I thought of opening commissions firstly 'cause I'm gonna be in serious need of money if things like this in the family continues and secondly I wanna have few extra buck so I can buy something for myself, but like those DOLL FAIRY LAND!

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you can check my deviantART here: PikoLu on deviantART

I know that first pictures and drawings are not that awesome BUT I CAN SERIOUSLY OUTDRAW (I'm not sure if that's even a word LOL) MYSELF and I can do really HARD those proper commissions.. I'm only asking for a chance here.

Thank you.

So, I'll try to put info tonight and I'll add it in a new journal entry. And I'm also thinking of a shop, but that's going to come later. Dunno when, but LATER.


And I have a new kitten. C: Will add pics laterrzz~



And that italic text.. The lyric is from a song called "Twisted Logic" by Coldplay